The end of a not-so-great era

Today I had my LAST treatment. Halle-friggin-lujah.

I rang the bell and celebrated with my friends and family and drank a huge milkshake. It was quite the fun party. I got lots of nice presents. Everyone knows that my favourite part about cancer is the presents. That’s the only thing I like about it, really. But it’s a pretty sweet perk.

Dad hugs post-bell-ringing

Dad hugs post-bell-ringing

 

I have all these confusing, mixed-up emotions. I’m scared of saying bye to all the nurses. I feel like I still need them. I’m scared of saying bye to my drugs. I worry what could happen to me once they’re out of my system. I’m scared of getting too comfortable, and ending up back in that chemo room. It’s hard to say it’s my last treatment without adding on “here’s hoping!” But I really want to believe it’s over. I want this to be the end. Please, please, please, let it be.

I am so over the whole cancer thing. Time for a new thing.

Here’s hoping.

 

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19 thoughts on “The end of a not-so-great era

  1. Marla says:

    Mazel Tov…only good things from here on….you are just allowed a little bit of worrying time per day!!!!Not alot of time, remember,just a smigen

  2. samanthatimms1 says:

    Damn!!! you go girl, you attack this world achieving everything you have wanted to do. I wish you only but the best and more, love sammi from all the way over the united kingdom x

  3. donzwebb says:

    Sooo happy for you, Steph! Just keep on embracing life as you’ve been doing and try not to dwell too much on the ‘what ifs’. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

    xoxo Donna

  4. Britt says:

    Huzzah! It’s important to note the milestones, I think… even if that lurking “what if” taints the celebration. Another complete stranger here, happy to learn this part is through, and delighted to see a post from you!

    xoxo

  5. Jennifer Fancy says:

    So happy for you. I felt the sane afraid to not having the team there looking after me everyday. You will do great. All the best

    Sent from my iPhone

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